“What we do, to me, at least in our minds, is the equivalent of a runner actually winning a medal, but then being like, am I fast though? I know everybody was cheering, and I know I came in first, but am I really fast? And maybe I was only fast because that other guy wasn't in the race.”

hard to move past that because there's a little bit of fear on the other end of, will I kill this heart again?

Yeah. And so it's such a weird, it's such a weird thing that you never really shake. Yeah. At times you can put it, you can tamp it down. Yeah. But it's always kind of present and sometimes is larger. And it's like, what will it take to believe that I can do this? Yeah,

that's really true. Maybe I'm

trash. I don't know. Like, actually, I probably am trash. Now that I think about it, take this gold medal. Back because I haven't earned it.

I did a benefit for Michael J. Fox. And it's a lot of some comedians and some artists and all these people on the thing. And Katie Couric was coming up after me to do something. And I went up and I did my set and it went great. You know, like it was a really great set. Everyone's laughing. You're…